Feeling Down.. Why I keep Messing things Up?
12/30/2004
Sigh... You know guys? Recently I've been thinking about the fact that I always mess things up.
I've also find out that I need to more manly already, cause my appearance looks like a kid. Maybe its time to wear jeans instead of my usual bermuda shorts eh?
And lastly, that my diet plan is working WAYYYYYYY too slowly? Yeah, probably due to what I eat after my exercise..
Sigh....
I dunno man... Why is it always me? Why Do I always mess up a perfect meeting? Why?
*sobs* i crying now. Serious.... I'm Feeling down now... Major depression and dissapointment...
To Aveline: Just in case your hand itchy go visit my blog again. I just wanna say that I'm sorry... I know I shouldn't have just act so idiotic when we were outside MPH. Guess I should not have even brought up the whole matter when we were out eh? Guess it spoils the whole mood..If time can turn back, I wish I never told you what happen at all.... Maybe it would be better now eh? maybe now we would be still talking on the phone, laughing our way to aspects of life. Hope you'll forgive me. Friends forever?
I hope...
Sigh... Guess I have more to learn eh?..
Pens off, I can't write anymore.. adioZ
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2:30 AM
Merry ChristMaSSSSSs
12/25/2004
Firstly, Merry Christmas to everyone who actually read my blog. May all you wishes come true.. Hahahaz
~_~ Anyways, changed the music le. From Ryan Cabera, called True. Damn sweet that music. Love it lotz man..
Hmmm.... lonely Christmas this year... Sigh... O yeah, just came back from my outlet's christmas party. Hahahaz.. Damn fun... Lolx... Anyways, I have to thank alot of people for helping me out (p.S Me and Eleine happened to be organising it). People like Wei Zhong and his kitchen crew. If not for them, this christmas party become Christmas blooper. Hahahz.. To people like Gwen., Luvena, Eleine, Elaine, Kevin, Uncle Lee, Uncle Trevors, Hock, Leong, Fadil, Subwan and Auntie.. Tankz for contributing food and presents~~~` hahahahz...
So anyways, we had food to start with when the clock strikes 12 midnight. lolx.. Was so fun man, everyone so happy and cheerful... Allen came back also to celebrate with us. Man, so sweet of her... Hahahahz... Den we exchanged presents lorz... I got a OP wallet for myself...But.. i think for ger use de la.. Hahhaz.... ~_~" cause its like the design for ger de lorz... Lolx..
Will be posting the Pics from the party soon ba i guess... Ok la gtg le damn tired. Tml still got to work from 6 to 12. Yawnz... Sian siak.. Hahaz. NiteZZZ
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1:41 AM
VesPa vespa VesPa
12/21/2004
Yoz pplz... Just came back from work...
Today ar? Quite stresed ba.. Cause Elaine put me do cashier today. OMG~
Yesterday when I did cashier I nearly made a mess lorz... Den make Eric and Elaine dissapointed. Gwendoline, WeiZhong and de kitchen crew were there for me, luckily. They told me do relax a bit, dun get too anxious... ThankZ kitChen cRew and Gwendoline... You fellas ArE De BeZ Nah~~~
Hahaha... Anyways, today I think i did quite well ba.. Cause not much customers today lorz... But that doesn't mean I'm proud of it lorz, cause I want to get even better. Like what Eric say, step by step.. I won't be too confident manz...
Den today only me and Gwendoline do closing. Damn li siao hor?! only 2 people neh... Lucky got Elaine and Ricky to help. O ya, Ricky is my outlet's new training manager. He bears a bit resembalance to Rubben Studdard I think.. Not in looks la, but size.. Den waited for Ricky to close accounts lorz, cause he offered to send me home in his Vespa. wooT~ It was pink coloured.. Not bad la...
Den reached home around12 lorz.. Hm... Damn tired....
K lahz got to go Sleep liao la... See Bei Tired. AdioZ
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1:26 AM
Happy Birthday to Louis the Great Gay!
12/16/2004
Hahahz... Today Louis Birthday, so first thing first. Happy birthday Gay-fark! hahahahz..... happy sweet 18 year old birthday wor~~ hahahahz..
Anyways, supposely today got work, den confirm somemore le. Den skali stupid manager told me dun need to go down le, cause got people come liao... Nabei... But nvm, lucky dun have, if nt cannot celebrate Louis's birthday..
So back to story. Today went out around 3+ to meet Leng Kai and Jodi @ Seng Kang... Cause today went to celebrate Louis's Birthday mah.. Den Kai late lorz, make me and Jodi wait for him and Leng at the station control tt side... Grrr... Hahahz.... Den Louis say he will be late, meet @ 5.30... Den we eat at B.K liao den go meet him... All hungry le~ Den skali Louis reach there early. Hahahaz.. Den we bluff him say we reach le, ask him to find us.. lolx.... But he find out we bluff him, cause he heard the "Door Closing" signal.. lolx....
After we all meet liao (P.s. Louis brought his brother along also), I pass Louis the present, den we walked the underway passage to Suntec City. We also shun bian window shopping a bit... When we reach liao, we decided to buy tickets for a movie... In de end go watch Ocean's Twelve. Not bad la de movie.. Alot of twist and turns.. Lolx... But before movie starts we went to play Initial D. As usual, my $1 wasted, cause lose again~~~~~~
After the movie, I suggested go Marche eat. Den they all kao pei when we went in. Because the food all berry exp.... Lolx, in de end we had pastas and Ice creams ... Except Jodi ba, he bought Sussage rosti' and a glass of milkshake.. Den after dinner we went to take photos together...Hahaz damn funny de photos, some like damn gay like tt.. Lolx... I saw the pics and nearly laugh my heart out.... hahaha
Den Dad offered to send me home, so I ask him to Long Pang Louis and co. Actually louis and his bro wanna pia taxi go home de... But bo pian, de taxi all so fucked up, dun wanna take customers cause they waitin for midnight surcharge.. Na bei C.B.... lame taxi drivers....
Anyways, now sending pics to all the gays as I am writing this post... Hahahz.. Damn tired... Nite!!!!
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1:02 AM
I Feel So Dead Recently
12/14/2004
Hmmm, here I am again, blogging my shit of happenings today...
Nothing much ba...Dad took me out with my stupid brother in the afternoon lorz... Sianz... hmm, had lunch outside.. Chicken Rice. Wa lan... like shit the chicken rice.. *puke*
Hmmm... den Dad talk about the topic of changing phones again... Sigh, i dunno what to do le... I dunno whether is it time to change to a new phone already or what.. Cause, my phone condition (my buddies should know about it la) looks like shit already man... hmmm... If i gonna change, den got 2 choices, either K700 or 6600. But my brother tell me not to change now... But if i dun, later my phone value drop again I cry... sigh... How How HOW~~~~~~
Hmmm... Den after that we took our damaged dvd drive to repair. Yep, my dvd writer drive spoil sia, dunno why also..We went to the distributor, let them see the condition le, den they 1 on 1 exchange with us. Heng sia... Phew..
After that went home lorz... Called up Leng, den he say tml we go out celebrate Louis Birthday.. Hahahz, Louis, a few more hours u 18 year old liao hor?! happy bo?! 18 year old le leh..... 1/2 an adult liao ar.... hahahaz..
Anyways, Leng ask me go plan... So see how lorz, most probably go out see movie again like usual. Haven seen one with them since a long time le. Sigh... Dunno what to see also le... Later I call Leng see how lorz...
Hmmm... I miss my Baby~
hmmph, ok ok gtg le...
P.S. Baby: Muackz , love ya.. ;)
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8:48 PM
NacLi Camp was GooD~~~
12/12/2004
Yoz pplz... Wazzup? Lolx...
I just came back from NacLi Camp today. Yep, had a camp since yesterday till today... Damn fun, and to be exact, this time is the second trip to this wonderful camp venue with my fellow SC mates, both 2nd years and 1st years. Well, it definitely felt good coming back to NacLi. The first time i came to NacLi was last year already..
Anyways, I dunno is it by chance or by luck, we kana the same instructors I had for last year.. lolx... Like damn coincidence lorz... Anyways, for the 2nd years, we had Seamas, Rabbit, Lynn, Adyah, Molly, Suhaimi, Alif, Shidah, and Osama. Opps, backtrack, I meant Faisal. Lolx... sial la, if i say Osama later he fed up. ahahahz..
As for the first years... Well not bad la, except for a few way too hyper active ones.. They really need to do the right things at the right time man.. P.S. just in case any of u year 1s happen to be watching this ar, keep note ok? To Lionel, if u happen to be lookin at this post, be more confident with yourself, dun let a setback pull you down. To the malay girls, like Ayu ( O Ya, Happy Birthday ;) ), Hany, Nurul etc.: you gurls were great in the camp. Good jobs gurls~ To val: Confidence is what u need when u played the games today. No obstacles can stop you from acheiving anything, all u need to do is BELIEVE.
Let's just mention a few la. Tak Boleh Tahan.. Tired already.. jia lat, I came back from camp and sleep until now.. Den now tired again. Omg... Lolx..
Anyways, Tml working from 12 to 6. Die la.... Hahahahz...
Ok gtg... Will be posting some pics from the camp in the next post.. AdioZZZZzzzz
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2:00 AM
New World, New Tomorrow
12/05/2004
Changed the stew-pid blog template again.
Basically its the same la, haahz... nth much... just changed the pics into those Mars photos. I love that show like siao~~~
Very sak ki man... Hmmm, also changed the music... hhehez... Changed to the main theme of the show, called Ling. Very power le that song, my fave.
Anyways, Today supposed to celebrate birthday with louis de, but i Shi Yue, cannot go, cause grandma ytd got admitted to hospital, den today come out no one look after except my grandpa. Cannot expect my grandpa to do everything rite? so in de end, my dad and my mum sent us down to take care of them, as they are working. Sianz.... hahahz...
Anyways, sorry la louis, I bet u hate me like siao.. Sorry la, my only kin le, I no choice...
Anyways, dun wry la, present buy u good one.. ;)
ok la gtg, buai~~
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1:20 AM
Blog template Done | Yet Sadness Consumes Me
12/02/2004
Finally, blog template done..
Sigh..
Been Thinking alot lately.. Mostly about the sad things that happened in my life?
Well, it actually begins while I was watching the Naruto Episode 80 ( My stupid brother go and download it on my computer ). Its about the death of the Third Hokagae, and everyone was very very sad.
That was when i dawned on the fact, that everyone dies and leaves very fast.. Just when you didnt cherish it, they just dissapear without your notice.. Take for example, my great grand ma..
She died when I was around Primary 2 ba.. From what I can remember, she used to dote on me alot (e.g. i happend be the eldest great-grandson FYI ) . She was one of my closest relatives, yet she just went off.. Den i went to my father's cupboard, and took out the video camera, and the tape which records the funeral of my great grandmother. Yup FYI its still around and intact.
I played the video and saw my expression then. Was quite shocked, cause instead of mourning with the others, I was smiling happily, as if nothing happened.
I cried after watching that video.. I did, Really... If only I was sensible enough.. Maybe things would be different now.. Sigh.. I dunno ba.. Guess I'm a cry baby eh?
..... Maybe It's time to change already ba.. Have to be more sensible le... Grandpa also getting older and weaker le.. As a grandson, I guess its time to spend more time with him, let him enjoy it to the fullest le.. Hope there are still enough time to make admanments....
Anyways time to knock-off for family matters. About work.. well.. Eric had a talk with me that day.. He told me that everyone in the office acknowledges me as a dilligent worker, and that I've the ability to become more than just a normal staff in the outlet. But he say I'm lacking confidence...
He's right actually.. I very scared i cannot do most of the things sometimes. I dunno why also.. Dare not to do it ba..
Anyways, Eric: dun wry, I wun dissapoint you de. I will overcome all obstacles and gain confidence. One day, I'll be in your post de. I promise. I can do it~
Ok gtg le la.. AdioZ
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11:27 PM
new blog template, so testing. Be blogging as soon as i am done with this template