GentINg BabY
3/22/2005
Woo hOO~
Anyways, sooooo sorry for a damn late update..
Recovered from the thing I had a few weeks ago...
And now I'm over at Louis's house. Together with tt Ass Leng and Shawn.
BEcause we going genting in a few hours time!!!
Hahahahahahahahahahahaha..
K la lazy to update. Come back le den Write again. Will be back on Thursday.. See YA~~
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4:13 AM
I've no confidence.........
3/06/2005
Guys... Listen up. Esp Louis. Yes, we're gonna apply for poly together. I swear on that, will never lie to my buddies....
.....I just lack confidence..
Its like a phobia I still havent gotten through with yet... That fear of failing something big... I dun wanna that to happen...
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10:05 PM
Shadow of Hopeless
3/05/2005
Growing more emo day by day.Dunno why also....
Muh bro going to CJC. Good to see him going to a J.C .. Dad and Mum's so proud of him.. Granny and Grandpa too.... I could understand... Least there's someone in the family line that makes it to a J.C..
Yeah... Unlike me.. Going into ITE, making my parents and grandparents down....
I really wished I could have done the same. Get good grades and enter J.C .. Making my parents proud... Making my grandparents happy.....
J.C .... It was once a dream for me.. wanted to fufil it, but it ended like a burst bubble...
Who would know how I feel then? Not my parents, definitely. They claim they know me, although I know they are dissapointed in me getting bad grades for O's. They wont know the kinda sorrow and sadness I face everyday during tt period of time. I know alot of people despised me, just because I'm gonna enter ITE. Friends start to leave me one by one... I became more and more lonely each day... I struggled on still, bearing the hope that my life still goes on.. If I never put up a struggle, I guess I would have commited suicide by now.
Really, aint joking...
Truth to me told, I think no one will ever know how I ever feel inside...
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10:47 PM
Being swallowed by the Darkness
3/04/2005
......What if I cannot make it to the poly?
I dun know, really. Been really bothered these few days regarding it...
Met up with Avy a few days back. We had a small talk, and she was quite stressed with her A Levels results. She was pretty stressed that she couldnt get into a good course in the Uni. Furthermore, her mummy wants her to take up courses in the NTU, which is rather far from her home...
Seeing her like that, I also dunno what to say also.. Coz I feel the same feelings as her.. I really dunno what's the future like for me. Really.
I really desire to get into a poly.. To make my my Mum proud.. To gain my respect from everyone who look down on me when I enter ITE.. But.... Could all of that be a dream that can never be fufiled? I'm not sure myself also..
...Really envy Louis.. His results is the best of us 3 buddies.. He also has the highest chance to enter the poly this year, leaving me and Leng to apply for poly next year..
..........I dunno.... I just wish to escape from reality... Too harsh le.. I cant take it.. Can feel I'm falling apart already..
.......... Just feel like dying.
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