......What if I cannot make it to the poly?

I dun know, really. Been really bothered these few days regarding it...

Met up with Avy a few days back. We had a small talk, and she was quite stressed with her A Levels results. She was pretty stressed that she couldnt get into a good course in the Uni. Furthermore, her mummy wants her to take up courses in the NTU, which is rather far from her home...

Seeing her like that, I also dunno what to say also.. Coz I feel the same feelings as her.. I really dunno what's the future like for me. Really.

I really desire to get into a poly.. To make my my Mum proud.. To gain my respect from everyone who look down on me when I enter ITE.. But.... Could all of that be a dream that can never be fufiled? I'm not sure myself also..

...Really envy Louis.. His results is the best of us 3 buddies.. He also has the highest chance to enter the poly this year, leaving me and Leng to apply for poly next year..

..........I dunno.... I just wish to escape from reality... Too harsh le.. I cant take it.. Can feel I'm falling apart already..

.......... Just feel like dying.